Seeker of Happiness

$12 Tote Bags and Some Happy Thoughts


Carrie Lynn3 Comments

I'm dying to have an opinion about something.
Let's blame it on boredom.

When I was in school, and/or working, I always had something to have an opinion about. SOMETHING kept my mind making decisions and thinking things out and coming to conclusions.

I secretly liked how annoyed I was by the whole Kony thing (which has apparently blown over seeing as none of my facebook friends have mentioned Ugandan children in a while). I liked thinking something through and doing research and figuring out where I stand. It's a process that I live for- and one that drove me into being a social worker.

Now that I'm a stay-at-home mom, I don't have "projects" to think about anymore. Yes, being a mother of a 10 month old gives me plenty of little moments like this- should I let Georgia cry it out right now, or cuddle her? Constantly take the dirty remote away from her mouth, or disinfect it and let her play?

The big stuff though- the stuff people loooove to talk about? I have no opinion. I don't have opinions on if you should breast-feed/sleep train/give your kid Nyquil for long road trips. We're pretty much flying by the seat of our pants over here and we try not to judge.

Honestly, I try not to "over think" the whole mothering thing because, in the end, I'm going to do a whole lot right and whole lot wrong anyway.

The point is, I love me a good research topic. Call me nuts, but I miss being in college and writing papers and giving presentations. I'll blame that on loving my major.

Some days, I really gotta hold back the jealousy when I watch Scott leave for school- all ready to have adult conversations about adult topics. No one will ask him how old his daughter is now and if she's sleeping through the night. They won't then awkwardly end the conversation. They won't give patronizing smiles and advice to "enjoy every moment of this."

Anyway, I'm not trying to complain. Really.
It's that that sometimes I wish Georgia and I could sit down and discuss the book I'm reading about the sleep sickness epidemic and that she would show more interest.