A few months ago I was reading in my old journals and an overwhelming theme of tween-teen Carrie stuck out: "My life is so boring."
I think I noticed this theme because it's kind of been something I've been known to say or think even now. Being older, I feel like I have the tools to change said boring-ness but really lack the energy or motivation to REALLY "make a difference" or have a meaningful adventure.
This is probably why I struggle with blogging on the regular. It's easy to look at all of the amazing people all over the WWW and feel, well, ordinary.
During a particularly bad case of antsy-pants this week I went on a rampage trying to find an affordable way to see something new. To do something fun and a bit out of character. Combining budget-friendly/fun/spontaneous is almost impossible with little kids but I felt determined. My cousin suggested a 20 hour road trip with 4 kids 3 and under and well... I agreed. She's been begging me to do it with her for months now and I always told her she was nuts. She caught me though. She hit me at my most vulnerable time. I don't think she realized that her most convincing text was this:
"It's sad that taking a road trip with kids in a minivan is my definition of crazy."
Maybe I think it's a little sad too. But I'm more excited than embarrassed. I told Scott it was going to be such an adventure and he quoted The Matchmaker:
"The test of an adventure is that when you’re in the middle of it, you say to yourself, 'Oh, now I’ve got myself into an awful mess; I wish I were sitting quietly at home.' And the sign that something’s wrong with you is when you sit quietly at home wishing you were out having lots of adventure."
So I'm off planning this little trip with my cousin who is one of my favorite people in the world. Scott is shaking his head at me a lot and muttering about things being "worth it" and I'm excited for my eyes to see three new states that I've never seen before. This may not be some epic visit to another country but it might as well be. I have about another month and in the meantime I will keep looking for ways to find the extraordinary in the ordinary. I just don't want to let down that bored 13 year old Carrie Lynn.